I am usually a fairly quick learner, however there is one lesson I just keep failing to learn. Fertility plus fatigue does not a baby make.
I used to be the kind of person who could run from one thing to the next, who didn’t need to keep stopping, keep slowing down, I was a multi-tasker extraordinaire.
But then two years ago I pushed my body too hard, I tested the limits of the line between complete fatigue and awe-inspiring accomplishment. And, not so coincidentally, it was at that very time when my body went haywire.
I was beyond exhausted, I was beyond run down, I was tired, tired to the bone. And thus, my fertility challenges began.
Now you think that I would have learned when after six months of rest, rejuvenation, a leave of absence from school and a quiet period at work, my cycles got regular again, I began sleeping through the night, and all my symptoms went away.
Nope, I didn’t learn.
Fatigue and fertility are two things that do not a good martini make. When we have given everything we have to all the demands constantly knocking at our door, there simply is not enough left over to fuel fertility.
The funny part about it all is that in running to do everything for everyone, we not only have nothing left for ourselves, we don’t have our best self to give to those who we are running around to do everything for.
Ailments of our body come to teach us something. First we get warning signs, sometimes we listen, and sometimes we don’t. Yet when we turn a deaf ear, our body will only nudge us a little harder the next time.
The first warning sign of my tendency to over “do” and under “be” came in college when I contracted mono twice in one year (the first time with blisters all over the back of my throat). Nope, I didn’t listen. Then, in my 20s I ended up with walking pneumonia and bronchitis. Nope, still didn’t listen. So finally, my body made me listen.
And even still, I continue to forget.
Each of us is engaged in a different “conversation” with our body. What is most important however, is that we stop and listen.
Infertility is a sign of a body out of balance, taking steps to regain that balance will help to heal us body, mind, and soul.
Now, it’s time for a nap!