I have often wondered, when is it that we “should” stop taking those prenatal vitamins?
Do we take them month after month, regardless of the outcome?
Do we begin ordering them online for fear that the clerk at the vitamin shop will start to look at us strangely when our stock of prenatal vitamins grows, but our belly’s do not?
Just when do we stop this one tangible announcement to ourselves, and to the rest of the world, that there WILL be a baby?
When it is time to switch back to our multivitamin?
I know, to many people on the outside of infertility this question may seem downright silly. I mean, seriously, it’s just a vitamin! For those of us on the inside track however, we know that it is so much more.
That little tiny vitamin is all of our hopes and dreams down the hatch with a glass of water. That oval pill represents the chance, the possibility, that soon we will need its additional nutrients.
So I wonder, when we stop, do we lose not only the extra dose of folic acid, but also our extra dose of hope?
Yesterday I ordered my vitamins for the next few months. The “prenatal vitamin” question is one that goes through my head every time I place my order. I always leave that illusive multivitamin/prenatal vitamin choice until the very end.
And yesterday, I finally knew that it was time to return to a multivitamin.
You see, life will always move on. Life will always move forward. Life, never lingers.
So whether moving on means embracing the life you are living, that does not include a child in your home for you to raise, or giving birth to your family through one of the many other options available to women on the path to conception, life will always move on for those of us who do not conceive.
When it is time, if it is time, you will know. You will simply know.
Because sometimes we need to let one dream go so that our hands are open to grab ahold of another one.
And sometimes, we need to stop taking the prenatal vitamin to signal to ourselves that we are finally ready, for something more than hope.